Well, I suppose it’s that time. The time of year to look back and reflect on what has happened and, um, stuph.
When 2013 began, things were looking up. My wife and I had reconciled and she had promised me she would do whatever it took to make our marriage work. Though she had lost her job due to medical reasons (she had to have a hysterectomy), things were still going well for us.
Or so I thought.
Merely a month into the year she found new employment then decided she no longer wanted to be married. I was crushed anew, and my resulting trip into the rabbit hole of depression would last for months.
I had my heart broken many times in the past year. Sometimes by women. Sometimes by people I thought were friends. Each time my heart was shattered into smaller granules I was plunged further into the rabbit hole.
At the very bottom of the rabbit hole (well, the bottom for me, anyhow) is where I found the true value of blogging. Fellow bloggers began reaching out to me. Friend requests were sent. Phone numbers exchanged. Cathartic talks ensued.
Through Facebook IMs, Twitter exchanges, texting, and phone conversations with fellow bloggers, I began to make a steady climb out of the rabbit hole. One blogger even gave me some money so I could start seeing a therapist. I was truly broke at the time and there was no way I could afford therapy. That person asked that I never reveal to anyone what he or she did, but if that person is reading I still want that person to know how much that meant to me and that was the catalyst to my ascension from the rabbit hole.
I’m not exactly thriving now, but I’m surviving. I’ve learned to live on my own for the first time in my life. My children are keeping me pretty occupied a majority of the time and when they are not I have plentiful hobbies to fall back on. I’ve actually found that I quite like living on my own. I have no one to answer to. I can do what I want when I want and no one is there to bitch about it. I’ve finally learned to manage what money I have, and have found a groove that works for me and the children.
I still have a plethora of blogging buddies I keep in contact with on an almost daily basis and I tried to repay their kindness to me with support of my own. We all need assistance at one point or another. I’ve tried to pay their kindness to me forward to new bloggers I meet along the way.
2014 is only a handful of hours away. When the ball drops a blank page will be presented to me on which to write a new chapter in the story of my life. I’m hoping this chapter will have a lot less heartache and a lot more laughter.
To those bloggers who have been there for me during these turbulent months (you know who you are), I thank you from the very bottom of my heart and hope that I can return the favor one day should the opportunity arise. Hopefully it doesn’t.
Here’s to a happy 2014 for all of us. Let the unshitty times roll…